He Is The Light That Leads Us Home

Recently I have felt very distant from the Lord. My Younglife leader helped me realize that these are the times we need to reach out to Him even more; these are the times we need to pray and ask Him for guidance.

For those of you who do not know me on a personal level, I have had an ongoing struggle throughout my life in believing someone that I cannot see. It used to be hard to believe such a great higher power would let everything that I have gone through, well, happen. I have struggled to accept that Jesus is all man and all God. I recently came to know Christ two years ago and it has been the best thing to ever happen to me. This does not mean my life is in order nor very enjoyable all the time. This does not mean all my prayers and every wish are granted. This does mean I have a friend. A friend that will listen to me whenever I need Him and make decisions to my prayers that may not be what I wanted but is what is in my best interest.

To know that the God of the universe is not only my Father but my friend makes me oh so joyful. I get to talk to him whenever I want. He’s seen me at my worst and at my very best. You will never find a better friend.

As I was saying I’ve felt very distanced from Him the past few weeks – but what is so great about this is that I have noticed how lost I have been without Him. Life is much greater when we rejoice in the Lord.

So I want to note that when you feel like you have gone astray or maybe you are questioning your faith, go to HIM about it. You can go to your friends about it, I actually recommend that, but it is not the same, fulfilling feeling you get when you speak to Him. You can go to alcohol and try to drink away the pain you’re feeling, guess what, that’s not everlasting. You can go to a boyfriend/girlfriend but they will never love you as much as our Savior does. Go to Him. This is the man who raised a man from the dead. This is the man who stood up for an adulteress who was about to get stoned to death. This is the man who had dinner with with a man that we would consider “a bigger sinner than us”. You have 24/7 access to this man. He is your father, He is your friend.

Run to Him, don’t be afraid.

“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”     Joshua 1:9

[temporary] HEARTBREAK

As teenagers, a lot of us start dating. It can be so great and exhilarating. You get to know someone who may have been a friend or maybe a stranger like the back of your hand. The two of you get to experience so much together. Although this is all so great, dating ends in one of two ways- marriage or breakup. Recently I was in my first real serious relationship. We were at it for a little over a year. One day something just changed. When you realize that things are no longer the same, it really hurts and you know what’s coming next. After a breakup, it’s really hard to get back to the old you.

  The places that you used to go to together, you can no longer go because memories come flooding back. The hundreds of pictures you guys took… going through and deleting all those off of your phone, well that’s the worst. When you realize that his friends that you loved, well they are HIS friends. You close your eyes and there they are. You dream about them. You are heart broken.

Although this feeling lasts a while and it just straight up sucks {there’s not really a nicer way to put it} I promise one day we will be okay.

I was roaming twitter a couple days after my break up and saw something i loved that i want to share, it goes like this;

God says, “the reason some people have turned against you and walked away from you without reason, has nothing to do with you. It is because they cannot go where I am taking you next. They will only hinder you in your next level because they have already served their purpose in your life. Let them go and keep moving. Greater is coming.” Says The Lord.

   Yes it hurts now and it probably will for a while but think about what wonderful person God has planned for you to spend the rest of your life with. Someone is going to love you with all their heart and try to give you the world for most of their life. So when memories are flooding back or you’re tempted to text or call them, just remember, one day you are going to find better. One day you will be okay. This is one of Gods many promises to us.